I got pushed out of my comfortable nest recently by my rusty old kiln breaking down. I am now the nervous, proud owner of a lovely newish one!
I finished a a big order to fill the new kiln on Monday. I felt funny about this order as it included a lot of plates and I don't really make plates as a production item. Against my better judgment I made the plates and stacked up the new kiln, and started the firing. It seemed to me like gas was just roaring out of the jets, and I wasn't really in control of the firing like I used to be with the rusty old monster.
The temperature was galloping up. When it came time to turn on the final two gas jets they were blocked! They spluttered and guttered leaving me with the horrible, dull "Boof!" of pots exploding in the kiln. I then had to nurse the temperature back down slowly, knowing all the time that I would open the kiln tomorrow to certain carnage.....
....which I did.
This is a lesson I learn time and time again, if I have misgivings about a project it is not superstition, it is because I am experienced. Those misgivings are all my years of experience telling me "This project is not right. Stay Away!"
I think it's important for artists who speak about their practice to tell emerging artists and their peers about their frustrations as well as successes. I don't know if many other potters experience these moments, they probably find it too depressing to speak about.
.......It's still the best job in the world.